Latenight prayers

Its spring,so why is there so much on my mind...Mom,My daughter and everyday things.
In 1996 my home was in a flood and i lost everything (my mind ).To this day i have things in boxes and cant look at it without feeling sick.
The first person to come was danny(son-in-law)
my Mom was there for me.I couldnt even make coffee.
I got out with my Poohpurdo (cat)
a pair of sweats and a pair of cowboy boots.
5 ft of sewer water destroyed my Art,all my pictures of family and my pride.
My mom was there to help for moral support and Fema was there to tell me my things were worth 4k.
I was devistated and lost my eyebrows...of all things!
its been a long time but when i woke up i could still smell the mold . my son was 13 at the time and my grandson was 2mo.this is the first time i wrote about this...god doesnt have a watch and i guess its time to let that go to make room for all the changes to come...what doest kill you makes you stronger and numb.